A Dream

Sometimes in life time passes by so quickly that it seems to be nothing more than a dream. Did that moment really happen...was it really you. The 'you' having grown, matured and become a different reflection of the 'you' in your youth.

I've slowly been reconnecting with my friends from my youth. We all remember the most amazing and sometimes embarrassing moments...some even that do not reflect the best of ourselves even from the 'we were just kids' perspective. But we also remember some moments that we all simply cherish.

It's amazing to reflect with these people because life choices have led us all to where we currently reside in life. Most of us have kids, some have been married and sadly divorced, some have never known anything other than their career in an effort to get to their 'goal' in life. Regardless of these choices we are where we are and it amazes me that we can (for the most part) pick up right where we left off like nothing ever changed. We still consider ourselves friends even after so much time has past.

I cherish all of these people. Some made more of an impact then others for sure..for example three friends when I was 12 were there the night I had my first kiss. It was my birthday weekend, they came to the Valley with me and we went out to the movies, snuck into another movie (kind of) and hung out with four boys we'd just met...Gorgie was his name and these three other friends literally witnessed my first kiss. Then back at my moms we stayed up even later smoking in my bedroom closet or the bathroom. There are others who just briefly passed by me in my youth but now we share the births of our children, the heartache of marriages that didn't last and all the hardships and joys that come with motherhood. Every person made an impact, small or large, that got me to where I am.

There are those in life that despite the 'dream effect' stand out for each of us. Any kind of first for sure; first kiss, first relationship, the one who deflowered, first heartache, first marriage (hopefully only), first baby, etc. There are also those people that you think of regularly, wondering where life has led them...if they are okay, best friends, those we go to in a pinch. So on and so on...

In a dream we can live a lifetime...in a lifetime we may live many or our time may be short. I strongly feel that our connections to our youth can travel with us into our present/future selves and many times reveal to us an even deeper understanding of who we are. I have had many chance encounters that may have, if I'd made a different choice, led me down a different path. I am thankful for where I've been and the choices I've made, even the mistakes, because it has led me to here and I have NO REGRETS!

I'll keep on dreaming...